Here We Go...

There have been a multitude of days and nights up to this very post where I’ve asked myself over and over again, “What do you think you are doing?” and, "Who do you think you are?".  Blogs are an outlet for WRITERS, people who have serious talent and gumption when it comes to putting thoughts to paper.  For some of those who are uber-talented, I imagine it’s as if their fingers can barely type fast enough because the words are piling up, one on top of another.  Uh...yeah...that’s not me.  While there are times when I'm certain of what I want to say, for the most part, it takes focus and intense concentration.  It takes quiet, and stillness, and revisions - many revisions.  I often struggle to find the right word or sentiment.  I know what I want to say...I just can’t fully express it.

But aside from all of the reasons I told myself that I shouldn’t hit "publish" this morning, the reasons I should linger on. Because even though I might struggle to string words together, I have this feeling deep in my soul that THIS is part of my life’s mission.  THIS.  Where it will take me, I haven’t the slightest idea.  Maybe it will end in months or will go on for years; that’s still to be determined.  But I get the distinct sense that God is calling me to this very task, and one of my biggest fears is coming to the end of my life, facing my Maker, and having Him ask me why I didn’t walk through the doors He specifically opened for me.  Fear holds us all back at one time or another and it takes strength and vitality to push through.  I figure I've leaned on my fear for far too long; it’s time to gather up my strength now.

“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream…”  C.S. Lewis

All that aside, please remember that putting our lives "out there" - for any of us - requires the vulnerability of a soft and sensitive heart.  And so, I am offering you my gentle and humble voice, but with shaky trepidation.  My hope is that this space will be sacred - a positive and respected outlet - filled with encouragement and understanding and all-encompassing love.  A place where we can find commonality in shared experiences, where we can say, yes, I've been there before.  Me Too... 

So tell me ~ have you ever been scared to take a risk?  Have you wanted to venture off the proverbial cliff, but scared you might fall? 

I can tell you this for sure.  I’ve fallen many, many times.  But wouldn’t you know it?  After each and every fall, I always manage to pick myself back up.

That’s the thing about life. 

Just when we think we can’t…we do.